I talked to Sam tonight.
I'm so glad he's back.
I missed him so much.
We had a conversation...
about him being with me.
And I'm not talking about just going out.
But he says that he respects me more than that.
I just don't understand.
I'd rather be with him than anyone else.
I want to be with him while I can... while I still want to.
I don't want to look back and regret not doing what I wanted.
That's the problem, though.
Isn't it.
It's the fact that what he wants
is to keep me this way.
We both know that we're going to move on.
Someday there will be someone else I want to be with.
But who knows how many guys there will be between Sam and My Future Love?
I want to be with Sam.
I should be with Sam.
I love him.
He loves me.
You'd think this is enough...
All I know is that I want him to be my first.
I'm not talking about sex.
Everyone knows I'm way to immature for that.
I just want him to be the first person I'm with at all.
Sometimes I wish he would just take his respect for me
and forget about it.
It'd be so great to just be with him...
and not think about anyone else.
Just him and me.
Together.
I used to think it was possible.
As a matter of fact, I still do.
I'm not sure whether it's his choice
or mine.
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